May-December (Part 4)

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May to December
i've learnt to be calm
and i've learnt to get furious

2
May to December
i've learnt to be brave
and i've learnt to get scared

3
May to December
i've learnt to be tough
and i've learnt to get frail

4
May to December
i've learnt to show up
and i've learnt to hide

5
May to December
i've learnt to stay
and i've learnt to run away

6
May to December
i've learnt to love
and i've learnt to hate

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May to December
i've learnt to smile
and i've learnt to cry

May-December (Part 3)

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May till December
i've learnt to think
and i've learnt to come up with nothing

2
May till December
i've learnt to hope
and i've learnt to end up with disillusionment

3
May till December
i've learnt to dream
and i've learnt to get up against the nightmares

4
May till December
i've learnt to believe
and i've learnt to live in hesitation

5
May till December
i've learnt to trust
and i've learnt to deal with betrayal

6
May till December
i've learnt to speak
and i've learnt to choose a reticence

7
May till December
i've learnt to be everywhere
and i've learnt to get lost in the middle of nowhere

May-December (Part 2)

May

i'm a newcomer
hello world...
world of nothingness, like you said
it's real, and it's fake

June

i'm an outcast

just being a bystander, i do exist

watching actors, you and others

laughing, crying, pretending

July

i'm still an addict

a cup of coffee

ten minutes of heaven, then hell

welcome hangover

August

i'm a lunatic

no intension of defying the gravity

i'm just having my little levitation

desire of flying, with the broken wings

September

i'm a lover

not knowing the meaning of your smile

elusive, deceptive

sweet disguise

October

i'm a liar

my heart to deceive, my mind to trick

i keep lying, i keep pretending, i keep denying

i'm dancing with a thousand thoughts in my brain

November

i'm a fool

my devotion, and nothing in returned

trapped in the prison of altruism

overwhelming, bewildering

December

i'm a broken heart

welcome a goodbye day

welcome my fake farewell

welcome a rendezvous, again